Random Thoughts

• My "baby" is too big for her carseat so we got her a booster. What's next? Driving the car? She's so proud that she is in a booster like her brother. I just can't believe she has gained nearly 5 pounds in two months! And people told me I should consider letting her outgrown her tonsil problems and not take them out. Um, sure, whatever. YOU come over and listen to my kid stop breathing at night and see her sick all the time. Obviously the end result has been that she is now using all that energy to grow instead of fight off infections. Not that she wasn't growing but she obviously wasn't growing as much as she could!


• FG gets excited at little things like me texting him a message with the word "urge" in it. He gets excited easily huh?


• FG and I actually flirt up a storm while texting. Keeps things exciting. So if you happen to see me with my phone in my hand and a sneaky little grin on my face you know it's probably something naughty. And if I blush, watch out because then it's really naughty! We've been together for 16 years this spring. We have to do something!


• If I'm not grinning or blushing, I'm most likely dealing with a text (or series of them) from a person who lately has felt like my "other husband." Certainly not in any sort of sense of attraction, just in a "I must take care of you" and a "WTF do you want? I am clearly busy, can you stop being so needy?" sort of way. I guess that is why we consider him family around here.


• Speaking of above mentioned person. It's about that time to freak out another potential girlfriend. Gosh I sure hope I have the same effect on my kids' dates! There's only been ONE girl of his I've liked and she knows who she is. Too bad he's a dumbass and now I am stuck taking care of him for the rest of my freaking life.


• Irony. I went to a website about depression in hopes to get some questions answered on how to deal with someone who is depressed due to medical issues. I had to submit sort of an application in order to post on their discussion boards. I did as asked and never got an answer back from them. So if I was actually seeking help for depression for ME, that would really push an insecure person right over that close edge wouldn't it?


• I haven't felt like a great parent lately. Then I tried to read a book about disciplining my kids in a "nice" way and it just made me feel even more like crap in the first 10 pages. So I returned it's sorry ass to the library before I ripped it up and then got mad because I would have to pay for that crappy book. My new approach - try to act like I have a nanny cam on me at all times, with sound. So far, my kids seem to think that I am a replacement for Real Mommy and are now crying because Real Mommy actually threatened to leave one day and never come back and now they think it really happened. They aren't sure how to respond because, hey, they LIKE New Mommy but are grappling with the idea that Real Mommy really did leave and it was because of them. There's a therapy bill I'll be paying for later. Maybe I should just go back to yelling at them.


• I am fully aware that I have run on sentences and most likely poor grammar and punctuation. Deal with it. This isn't an English paper for a grade - it's Random Thoughts!


• Ahhhh. Dinner out with friends tonight. But I still got out some of my spaghetti sauce from the freezer so FG and the kids don't eat the crumbs from the bottom of the chips bag, the moldy cheese or dust bunny stew.

Thanks for listening to me ramble. :)