Summer....

This is what summer should be. WHY does it have to go so fast when I have so much to get done?! I wish I could just forget all the house stuff and obligations (believe me, I have been very lax and let a ton of things slide) and play play play.
Today is a pajama day. The kids are still in their pj's, running around playing. No tv on for either of us. Of course, I can't tear myself away from the computer. After I'm done here. I'm going to turn the damn thing off until I get through my TO DO list and turn it into a Ta Da! list. Uh oh, I hear loud thumps from a bedroom upstairs. Hmm, no screaming or crying, they must be ok ;) Anyway, I'm always proud when the tv is off. I will admit, it's a pretty darn good babysitter. When I'm pmsing and getting myself all worked into a frenzy over just wanting things settled and clean and done. That TV works like some great Baby Heroin to just keep them out of my way for awhile. Before kids, I would have thought I was a horrid mother. Only now, being "On" as Mom 24/7 and alone a lot of that time, do I realize it's just another coping method.
See I keep thinking if I could just catch up then I could relax and we could just go play. But I never do seem to catch up. Then I get things like the yard stressing me out. I LOATHE yard work. It's DH's job. But DH would rather be on the beautifully manicured golf courses than making his own look as beautiful. Fine, I don't expect that either but gosh, the weeds? And I have asked and told and gotten mad but I'm done. Because then it REALLY won't get done if I nag. But can't he be on MY schedule and just do it for me/us? Then I can stop stressing about it, stop feeling like maybe I should be the one out there battling the blasted weeds, get my own stuff done and then play! Summer! Play! That's all I want!
Thankfully I do stop and play. Thankfully I do let the kids have relaxing PJ days and they seem perfectly content. And yes, at some point I will reach my breaking point and want some peace and turn on a TV show. I'm only human. And a human who just wants to get the crumbs off the floor so I can enjoy that beauty of summer - walking barefoot.

It's just one thing and onto another

So I feel like the summer is rushing by us. I feel like we haven't had a lazy summer evening at all this summer! I miss the walks with the family around the block, the ice cream cones. I sit and think about how I never should have talked DH into getting a laptop and wireless connection in the house. He is outside but he's on his computer! Once this stupid golf tournament is over hopefully he'll have more time.
Lately it's been just moving from one thing to another and another. If I'm not getting ready for a bbq/gathering at our house, I'm wrapping a present for a birthday party or preparing to go somewhere else. I guess it's good to be social and have friends around though. I know when things DO slow down I say, "Gosh, I'm bored! I miss my friends!" but then I throw myself into something else and feel all overwhelmed again.

I can't believe it's July already and we already experienced the July 4th Holiday! We did have a great time, which was so refreshing. The boat - gotta love the boat. It's nice to relax but still being fairly new, it always comes with a little stress.

Here's a few pics of our fun day

Now my daughter is turning three. I chose to have her party this weekend regardless of the fact that her daddy is out of town and will miss it. If I waited a week, 1/2 of her little friends couldn't be there. But that leaves me to handle all of it. I had DH get the water and go buy the present - of course, I was on the phone with him while he did it, directing him to the exact spot in Toys R Us that it was located. I would have gone myself if I didn't want the kids to see it.
So I have to get everything including kids and their overnight stuff out to my parents house, get home and get ready for an event I'm attending with friends, then get up in the morning and finish getting things ready for the party, pick up the balloons and get out there at a decent time to get the place ready. It's not fair for my parents to keep my kids AND set up for the birthday party.
Then I have a day "off". I haven't taken the kids to the beach yet so I'd like to do that too. THEN it's on to the next event - a meeting at the house for DH and his buddies. I told him, because I have a reputation to live up to, that I would make some good stuff for their dinner. So it's just from one thing to another - again!